*LOVE*

What love is actually about?Till now,I also don't have any idea.For me,I just feel that it is almost like a thing that situated very far away from me.In my opinion,I would like to describe it as rose.
When you haven't own it,you will try to your best to possess it.This is because human will only feel attractive towards things that rare enough and haven't seen it before.

However,once you owned it,You will not appreciate it.You might feel that it is nothing great actually.There will be another assumption.That is you might scare to lose it.This is because you know that nothing will last eternally.Or else,you might also feel that you are afraid to be hurted by it.Yet,you are trying to stay away from it.Slowly by slowly,bits by bits.Unfortunately,once you already fall in love deeply,it is very hard to you to pick yourself away from it.You will only getting more sad and more hurt from it.Hence,you will only feel burden and fatigue.

So,here is the question.'Should we away from love?'

Distance & Time...Not the Factors of Love

Before that,I thought that only external factors like time and distance would only change someone's heart.However,I was wrong.

I have a friend who is a girl.A very emotional girl.However,she is very experience and seems to have deep research on love relationship.She told me that not external factors changed people's mind,but the people himself already created a wrong thinking to have a reason for him to change.

I was shocked at that time.And of course,I didn't know what she trying to say to me.I just knew that maybe I was wrong.Yes,I was wrong.Totally wrong.Not distance and time which changed someone,but the person himself changed because of his mind.

So,from now onwards,I would only accept reasons that do not include the factor of distance and time.Only the person himself can control his mind.If his love is strong enough,his love definitely won't lust.

My First Propose

I found that during these days,I acted quite weird.I didn't know why.I just knew that if I met her in person,I would definitely felt uncomfortable.I felt something that I hardly explained grew in my heart.

Later,as time went by,I started to uncover the truth.Sorry to say that,I fall in love.I began to have strange feelings towards a girl.My heartbeat increased drastically when I saw her.I couldn't control myself.I began to quarrel with her.We quarrelled for nothing.I didn't know why.I just wanted to quarrel with her.Maybe I just wanted to create topics to talk with her.When I talked to her,my mouth seemed to be lost control.I spoke things that were not fixed with our conservation.

I began to think back.I analysed the problems.What I did actually?Impossible!It was not the truth.I found that I fall in love with her.I love her.Why?As much as I dreaded facing the inevitable,I accepted it with moderate feelings.I tried to convince myself.I already love her.This was the truth.I had to face it.So,I had a talk with her personally.

Unfortunately,she rejected me.She said that she had not enough preparation for love relationship.After I heard her explaination,my brittle heart was devastated.I heard the breaking of bottle came from my deep heart.My tears began to stream down my cheek,like unthreaded pearls.I said to her that I would give her time for her to accept me.Maybe she could also have her time to understand me more.

She said cruelly to me that I had to give up instead.She already had a person who stood firmly in her heart.That person occupied a very important position in her heart.I couldn't replace him.So,she would wait for the person to come towards her one day.I felt that I was lost.Sailing alone in the sea of loneliness.I could not find out the exit.I started to scared.

I asked myself.'When can I find my true love who can sacrifice the same as what I sacrifice for our love?'

Perhaps,I would have to wait for it.I strongly stood with my opinion that my time to wait for it worth for it.