*LOVE*

What love is actually about?Till now,I also don't have any idea.For me,I just feel that it is almost like a thing that situated very far away from me.In my opinion,I would like to describe it as rose.
When you haven't own it,you will try to your best to possess it.This is because human will only feel attractive towards things that rare enough and haven't seen it before.

However,once you owned it,You will not appreciate it.You might feel that it is nothing great actually.There will be another assumption.That is you might scare to lose it.This is because you know that nothing will last eternally.Or else,you might also feel that you are afraid to be hurted by it.Yet,you are trying to stay away from it.Slowly by slowly,bits by bits.Unfortunately,once you already fall in love deeply,it is very hard to you to pick yourself away from it.You will only getting more sad and more hurt from it.Hence,you will only feel burden and fatigue.

So,here is the question.'Should we away from love?'

Distance & Time...Not the Factors of Love

Before that,I thought that only external factors like time and distance would only change someone's heart.However,I was wrong.

I have a friend who is a girl.A very emotional girl.However,she is very experience and seems to have deep research on love relationship.She told me that not external factors changed people's mind,but the people himself already created a wrong thinking to have a reason for him to change.

I was shocked at that time.And of course,I didn't know what she trying to say to me.I just knew that maybe I was wrong.Yes,I was wrong.Totally wrong.Not distance and time which changed someone,but the person himself changed because of his mind.

So,from now onwards,I would only accept reasons that do not include the factor of distance and time.Only the person himself can control his mind.If his love is strong enough,his love definitely won't lust.

My First Propose

I found that during these days,I acted quite weird.I didn't know why.I just knew that if I met her in person,I would definitely felt uncomfortable.I felt something that I hardly explained grew in my heart.

Later,as time went by,I started to uncover the truth.Sorry to say that,I fall in love.I began to have strange feelings towards a girl.My heartbeat increased drastically when I saw her.I couldn't control myself.I began to quarrel with her.We quarrelled for nothing.I didn't know why.I just wanted to quarrel with her.Maybe I just wanted to create topics to talk with her.When I talked to her,my mouth seemed to be lost control.I spoke things that were not fixed with our conservation.

I began to think back.I analysed the problems.What I did actually?Impossible!It was not the truth.I found that I fall in love with her.I love her.Why?As much as I dreaded facing the inevitable,I accepted it with moderate feelings.I tried to convince myself.I already love her.This was the truth.I had to face it.So,I had a talk with her personally.

Unfortunately,she rejected me.She said that she had not enough preparation for love relationship.After I heard her explaination,my brittle heart was devastated.I heard the breaking of bottle came from my deep heart.My tears began to stream down my cheek,like unthreaded pearls.I said to her that I would give her time for her to accept me.Maybe she could also have her time to understand me more.

She said cruelly to me that I had to give up instead.She already had a person who stood firmly in her heart.That person occupied a very important position in her heart.I couldn't replace him.So,she would wait for the person to come towards her one day.I felt that I was lost.Sailing alone in the sea of loneliness.I could not find out the exit.I started to scared.

I asked myself.'When can I find my true love who can sacrifice the same as what I sacrifice for our love?'

Perhaps,I would have to wait for it.I strongly stood with my opinion that my time to wait for it worth for it.

Love...Stay away from it?

Before that,I felt that love,for me is a stranger that won't come into my ordinary life.I also never have any expectation towards my love relationship.I know,love is a hazardous thing.My sense always tells me not to go near or get involve in it.I obey it and convince myself to be moderate.

However,after I met many cases happening around me,I felt that I was wrong.Although love is a dangerous object,it colourises our life.Our life,initially just like a white sheet of paper,becomes colourful due to the presence of love.Love changes us from immatured to matured,from unperfect to perfect.

Our mind,initially blank,now becomes full...Full with memories.Memories with lover,people whom you love.Although at last you and your lover may seperate due to several reasons,what you gave or gained in this relationship is a memory.A memory with your lover,although is just a small part,a short period in your life,it happened in your real life.Your lover maybe a passer-by in your life but his or her presence has changed your mind and thinking.You changed because of him or her.

Your lover is not neccessary belonged to you.However,your heart has already belonged to him or her.What you can do is just wish him or her to have a sweet life.Bless him or her with your deepest will.Love a person,is not a must to own physically,but in the field of soul.Your soul is already mixed with feelings that are unexplainable.You can't control your mind.You keep on thinking of him or her.You always wonder where and what he or she is doing now?

And of course,love is just a memory.A memory which makes your life perfect,inordinary.This memory will present in your mind forever.No matter how you wish to delete it,forget it,you can't.Please don't bury your head in the sand like an ostrict.This will only make you suffer.You will only feel that it is very difficult for you to continue your life.

In a nutshell,there is no such ways to stay away from love,but just accept it when it comes to you.So,just use moderate feelings to lead your life.Thus,any obstacles will not stop you and affect your mind.

My Worries

When I was alone...
I thought of many things...
My past...
What had I done during these time?
What had I lost?
My present days...
What I am doing now?
What's circling my mind right now?
My future...
Shall I continue my life without any change?
Keep on my life with what I own?
I confused...
I tried to think...
Thinking where should I lead my way...
I lost...
Lost in the wide ocean...
Sailing alone...Without any sailors be with me...
Lost in the deep jungle...
Adventuring alone...Without the aid of compass...
Lost in my life journey...
Walking alone...In a long life journey...
Very depressed...Really uncomfortable...
The journey is too long...
I wish...
There is someone who can stay beside me...
Cheer me up...Support me...
Yet...
Till now...
I'm still waiting for that person...
Long for you...

Glamour

Name...Status...Position...
Which states someone's ability...
In certain fields...
The glamour...
In general...
Proves and points out the peak of the circle...
However...
Is that really shown the summit?
Or that's only one of the ways to show it?
For me...
It is only a measurement...
Which proves someone's results...
Not the sincere heart...
The feeling in doing something...
The real personality... Which is the only ruler...
The only judge...Measurement...
That shows the truth... The real ability...

Desert's Sunset

New Mexico Desert's Sunset
Desert Island
Sahara Desert's Sunset

Autumn

Autumn...
A very romantic season...
Throughout this season...
The leaves dry up...
Turn yellow...
Falling down to the earth...
Slowly...
Along the street...
Couples...
Sitting at wooden chairs...
Looking at each other sweetly...
Enjoying the beauty...
Orangish leaves... As the priest...
Witness their love...
The true and pure love...
Present in their deep heart eternally...

Dream?

A dream...
Will it come true?
Yet...
With strong determination...
A great will...
Just lead your life...
As what you wish to have...
Bravely across it...
Accepting all the challenges...
Struggling off all the hindrances...
Finding a way...
The only way you choose...
To succeed at last...
Reach the expected target...
Dream... Is not a dream anymore...
But is a turning point in your life...
As long as you work for it...
Success... Is just the product of your work...
Your strength will lead you...
Acts as a bright candle in the dark...
Shines the darkness street...
And eventually...
You will reach the end point...
In which you stated before...
For yourself...In your odinary life...

Tears

Tears...
Very precious...Priceless...
Like pearls...Hide in oysters...
Insides the deep sea...Wide ocean...
Like a box of tressure...Full with invaluable property...

Tears...
Just like droplets of water...Early in the morning...
100 % pure...The presents from god...
Full with the spirit of nature...
The soul of life...

Tears...
Accumulate all the memories...
Memories of joy...Memories of pain...
Which mean to our life...Colourise our life...
Make our life alive...Eternally...

Recovery

Leaving her...
I myself...
Facing the future...
Accepting the challenges...
Overcoming the obstacles and hindrances alone...
I scared...
But still tried...
Trying to pretend in front her...
To be brave...
By hook or by crook...
We already splited...
We were no more a couple...
I was just a passer-by...
A minor actor...
In her life's drama...
Became a small part of her memory...
But I still...
Hoping that...
One day...
She,the main actress...
My only princess...
Would turn back...
Discover me...
Our love would recover...

Unacceptable Love

Very tired...
Being played by love...
Turning around...
I nearly insaned...
I really scared...
Scared of falling in love...
As what I used to know...
Love...Is very hard to guess...
Difficult to decide...
Hardly understood...
I couldn't accept it...
Very dull...Moody...
I scared of it...
Hatred to be hurted again...
A hurt because of love...
Letting my tears...
Rolling down my cheeks...
I cried...
For what?
I didn't know...
Maybe... That was the only thing...
That I could leave for that person...
Even though we couldn't be together...
And maybe... I already used to...
Used to cry for the memories left...
Deeply buried in my deepest heart's soil...
It was our secret... Forever...

True Friend...

A 15-year-old girl,supposed to lead her childhood happily.However,she lost her family in a car crash when she was still a baby.From that time,she thought that she was the luckiest girl in the world as she was the only survivor in the car crash.Because of her tragic life,my parents kindly adopted her as child and she was named as Miracle.We began to be best friends,we shared everything we owned.

However,god seemed to have green eyes towards her.It happened drastically one day.That day was a turning point in her life which changed her life forever.I could still remember that it was a sunny day.Everything went with our daily routine.As usual,we had our daily exercise together in a small stadium in our beloved school.We were asked to run for ten rounds circling the stadium.

All of a sudden,she fainted.I went near her to check for her breathing.I could not sense warm air breathing out from her nose.I was frozen at that time.I started to shiver.I did nothing but quickly informed my teacher.

Within a fraction of second,Miracle was sent to the hospital.Along the way to the hospital,I hold her hand,trying to call her up.She did not give any respond.My tears began to flow like unthreaded pebbles.I scared to lose her as she was my only true friend.I could not control myself.I screamed as loud as thunder like a psychopath.

Fortunately,her strong determination resumed her breathing again.Her breath was weak and warm but was meaningful to me.I was over the moon at that moment as if I gained everything in the world.It was already the truth that for me,a true friend is more precious than prosperity allocated in the world.I kept on talking to her as what paramedics told me to keep her awake.

After a series of diagnosis,she was examined that she suffered from brain cancer and she had already reached the last stage.The cancerous cells in her brain had already spreaded throughout her body.Even she carried out chemotheraphy,she could only live not more than one month.Thirty days,I really could not accept it.I tried to convince myself that she would be fine soon.Looking at her lying on the bed,I did nothing.I started to blame the God for grabbing all things from her included her parents and her brother.Even now,she still had to suffer from this unfamiliar disease for me.I nearly insaned.

Luckily,she was so tough to accept it as her life's challenge as she kept on calmed me down.She was so optimistic as she felt that she was so lucky as the God did not grab her life from the car crash.She still could enjoy the beautiful world for 15 years.Now,she even still could live for one month more.Her smile eventually calmed down my emotional thinking.All worries seemed to be disappeared at that time.

Within this 30 days,I stayed with her.After undergoing chemotheraphy,she looked so pale and she even did not have energy to move her lips.Her black,soft hair began to drop as that was the side effect of chemotheraphy.I felt so dull but still kept on laughing in front her.I really admired her as she thought positively to fight with cancer.

One peaceful night,we both sat on a wooden chair.The sky was fulled with shining stars.The scenery was so beautiful that we really enjoyed it.

'I wish to become a bright star shining in the dark sky after I leave this beautiful world',she told me.'I wish to use all my energy to shine the world,telling all residents in the world that this world is still warm.'

I listened to her quietly.That night,I hardly slept.I kept on thinking what she told me.A selfish thinking suddenly acrossed my mind.Maybe,death was the only way to free her from being tortured by the disease.I could sense that the music of devil began to colonise my mind.I started to confuse.I remembered her pure smile and her positive thinking.I gave up my selfish thinking at last.

'Didi,didi!'My handphone woke me up.I accepted the urgent call.It was from the hospital.I was informed that Miracle has passed away at about 2 a.m. yesterday.I was shocked at that moment.But what really shocked me was that I did not feel very sad.Maybe,that was her fate.At least,she went through her worst situation with me.

Now,when there is stars in the sky at night,I will just find out the brightest one and keep on thinking of her.She made me realised that the most blissful thing along our life journey is having a true friend.

Miracle,friendship forever...

*Time...

The only ruler to judge human's intelligence is time...

With the lost of time,we learn lessons from our life journey.Socrates,the most famous philosopher in ancient Greek,when he was 70,he found out he saw nothing!

Maybe,along the long life,contains only live and dead.The memories of happiness and sadness are only the passers-by.Love and hate are just fireworks in fraction of seconds.After the climax,what left is just fragments of regret.

Appreciate the present and prepare for the future with moderate feelings...

Determination

Determination...
A very abstract noun...
We can't say to ourselves...
'I have a strong determination'
Instead...
We don't even have a confirm measurement...
To judge our determination... In a certain unit...
We can only compare oursleves with another person...
Only through comparing...
We can judge out the differences...
We can't have 100% of determination...
But try to achieve the level...
To be the toughest person...

Correct Thinking...

My Chinese teacher told me before that...
'You shouldn't look marks as the whole.
In fact,the process of learning
Is actually the main part of it.
Results mean nothing.
As long as you gain something through learning,
I will be proud of you.'
I felt something opened my stubborn mind...
Before that...
I thought that marks are the most accurate measurement...
To judge the person's ability in the particular field...
Now... I realised...
Actually...
The way you treat it...
Has already proven to you... Who you actually are...
Already woke up from the materialistic dream...
Or...
Still dreaming the created world...

Key Of Success

To succeed in life...
Is materialistic control the key?
Or the appreciate of relationship...
Maybe,some people will say that...
'If you want to succeed,
you shall put money and power in front of relationship'.
In fact...
Nothing will go wrong with this statement...
As nowadays the world has totally changed...
Become more realistics...
People have to put these two demons in front...
Relationship doesn't make any sense...
In continueing to survive in this cruel world...
However...
The earliest and purest thinking...
Is that...
Relationship...
The key towards the success...

Accepting Or Sharing?

Accepting or sharing...
Which would you choose?
I prefer sharing...
If just depends on accepting...
You sure gain something...
But...Not all...Not the whole...
Why?
You are selfish...
Not will to share your knowledge...
In fact...You think you gain it...
You will lose it...Because of your thinking...
Unreasonable mind...stayed alone in a small room...
Small-hearted...Scared lost in the battle...
The war which means to you...
However...Sharing...
Actually an action which provides a win-win situation...
You give and accept...Your partner does the same thing...
You all have a double communication style...
With this condition...You gain something...
Thing that more precious than the knowledge...The money...
That's the real and meaningful relationship...
The real friendship...The real love...
At least...You gain the human value...Which you can't find...
In anywhere...But in the social university...
The most invaluable thing in the world...Love...

Alone

Will you scare of being alone?
For me...I won't...
Why?
I have already enjoyed...The taste of loneliness...
The feeling of sour...Making the heart breaks...
The feeling fades...The spirit disappears...
I just treat it normally...
As if it is already part and parcel...
A lone ranger...Sailing in the sea...
Adventure the nature...

Droplets

Droplets...
The most brittle thing in the world...
Saying it to be brittle?
Not the truth...It's actually very soft...
When it drops to the ground...
It changes shape...To suit the situation...
The harsh situation which may endanger it...
However...It's tough to withstand with external force...
External pressure...External factors...
I am proud of it...Being sly enough...
Playing with the demon...The evil soul...
At last,even it evaporates into the thin air...
Disappear itself...It's still remain...
Remains in the atmosphere...follows the nature law...
The water cycle...Which ensures the continuous flow of water...
Sacrifices itself...For the large communties...

Sunset

Sunset...
The most beautiful scenery for me...
Why?
It gives me a special and unexplainable feel...
How special it is?
I will think of many things...Looking at it...
I think of my past...
The time...Which has already disappeared...
Went through it...That ordinary life...
And...What is the result?
It ends with nothing...
Now... I'm still the same...
Leading the same life routine...
The past...Didn't make sense...
Influenced nothing to my present life...
Means nothing...
So...What for I think about it?
Actually...It's just my memories...
A part of my life...
Which is already deeply buried in my heart soil...
I wish to...Refresh my memory...
Before I totally ignore it...Forget it...
Because...It's once a part of my present life...

Love...Burden Of Life

To those who are rational and not experienting love before...
Love...
To Them...Is just a burden...
A burden to their heart...
They scare...To love...To accept it...
Because...They scare to lose...
Lose after gaining it...
This feeling...Really hurt...
Happiness...Is just a very short period...
Romance...Is just a beautiful lie...
Touching feels...Is just a sudden immatured thinking...
After these...
The climax goes down...
The ending's going to arrive peacefully...
Your mind...Already matured...
You're...Now no more being childish...
Your memory...Has been filled with the days...
The seconds...Minutes...Hours...
You with your lover...
Now...No more being together...
However...All these no longer that important...
At least...You and him being together before...
Just appreciate that moment...
Take it to heart...Bury it in the soil...
Cover it with the mother nature...
Deeply...And peacefully...

Mirrors

There is only three types of mirrors in the world which give the real function of the mirrors...

Firstly,the mirror which is made up of bronze at the past and now has been developing into glass...This mirror will show out our disability and unneatable look.Then,we will know our problems and try to change it back.We will only change our physical look,but not mentally.

After that,we have the mirror which is made up of historical memories...This mirror shows us the begining,the glory and the ending of a dinasty.These give us lessons that how a dinasty became rich and how it became poor...How was the society that time?Were they suffer?Why all these happened...We should think over and over for it...To find the root of the problems...

The last mirror,the mirror which is human ourselves...We tend to do correct or wrong things...We tend to have our strengthness and our weakness...We try to use this mirror...The most unimaginable mirror which has the greatest power to survive...To save us from the darkness...The demon's colonisation on our heart...The evil soul from conquerring our real and purest soul...

These three mirrors have proven to human that we,human are not the greatest living things in the world.In fact,we are weak in most fields...However,people who will to improve,will use these three magic and special mirrors to save himself...

Photo

How would you describe a photo???Photo...For me,it's a very memorable thing in my long life journey...

Why it's memorable???Erm...Maybe I should say that it brings memories which are already sunk in our memory sea-bed...Haiz...When I looked again my old photos,don't know why...I felt something grabbed my feeling...And I felt very dull that day...Maybe...Because of the time has away...It won't back to that day...That smiling face...That charming eyes...That childish pose...And even that person...Who now disappeared already...No longer exists in my real life...Just like a legend...A passer-by...Passed my life...With nothing...But just left me a small memory...

I won't regret...Won't blame him...For just be with me with a short period...Because...He also wanted to be with me forever...But the time doesn't want him to stay besides me...

On A Lonely Road

Very sad and felt lonely when I walked through a small,narrow and quiet road...In fact,I felt a fear...Scared of the loneliness...Very fobia of the darkness that colonised my heart...I was in the fear...

But who...Who saved me...Saving me from that road which I hardly passed through...

And maybe is you...Helping me to against the fobia...Lending a helping hand to me...Walking through the road with me...Thanks...

Happiness VS Sadness

Between happiness and sadness,which would you prefer?I think most of you would definitely choose happiness rather than sadness...If I really have the chance to make a choice,I would also choose happiness...But is happiness just stand in front of us?The answer is NO.

Why do I say so?Am I crazy?Ya...Maybe I have become mad...Mad because of tension...Because of stress...From almost everywhere in our life...We sad...We dispirited...disheartened...Without we realised it...We suffered...From the dreamland which we longed for...

We suppose to live...Happily in the world which we can live with our own style...Own thoughts...Own will...But we are trapped...Trapped from the cruel and realistics world...We can't...We can't release ourselves...From the evil...The temptation surrounding...

When can I be the only survival from the Evil War?And perhaps...I won't...Maybe,happiness...For me,is just a term...A term which is very far from me...Just like the peak of the Mount Everest...And I'm just a small creature which lays in the sea bed of the Mariana Trough...

Perhaps...The god has already choosen for me...I can only choose sadness for my life...And walk alone for my life journey...There will not be the third person who can colourise my black and white day...I won't regret...But accept it peacefully........

Hope

Have you been waiting for someone for a long time?I mean the time is not only just for hours,days,months,years...But,decades......

Who you think that I has been waiting for so long?A true friend...In my life,no...In facts,in most of our life,there will be lots of friend...However,are they your true friends?Can you ensure that they won't blame you even you just did a small mistake?Will they always care to you not just will to search for informations for their gossip's target behind you?Will they share all their happiness and sadness to you?......

Then?Are you now realised that why I has been waiting for so long?These reasons have supported my thinking that a true friend is not easy to get...Till now,I still hoping that there will be a time where my true friend will appear and will to share with me...And,I will long for him......

The Journey Of Life

Life is actually just like a reflexology road paved with rough rocks.I felt painful,uncomfortable and even cried when I walked through it.However,I cried...Not because I felt the pain due to my physical hurt...But my heart...Already fulled with scars...Became dispirited,discouraged and even disheartened...

Facing the city...I felt scared...The hustle and bustle of city life...Making me stressed...I scared of it...Without I realised,my heart...Starting to have a great evolution...The evil desires...Began to colonise my thoughts...The devil...Started to influent my thinking...And the darkness...Began to control my will...

I couldn't...I couldn't...I couldn't reject it...I couldn't defend myself...I confused...I became restless and unsettled...Finally,I lost.I lost...Just because of my greedy...I couldn't resist the temptation...I tempted to evil...Just because of my selfishness...I couldn't defend myself from being betrayed to my kindness...And just because of my childish...I did the false things...

As these are what we are facing right now,why we still make it a routine...Change it...Release your pure soul...From the conquer of darkness...The world will be brightened again...And this is a chance for us to lead the world to the dreamland...This is our journey of life........

Time

Is time consist of 24 hours per day?One year contains 365 days?Then,one year will have 8760 hours,right?So,20 years will have 175200 hours!!!I am quite surprised when I first heard this statistic...

Then,I doubted...Along this long period,how many time had I wasted?I wondered...Why I couldn't realised that time passed so fast...I started to regret...Starting to look backwards on what I had done...During these year...How can I replace my wasted time?Is time can be replaced?Till here,my tears began to flow...You might say that I am very brittle,not tough enough to withstand high pressure...

However,time will not stop because of you...It will still continue its journey...You can just look it with symphathy...You just watch it with a feeling that could not be explained...You won't regret what you have done...You maybe just think that this is your choice,you wouldn't blame anyone...You can just accept it peacefully...

Beware:Don't regret about your choice...
Accept it...With your endless mind...
Perhaps...Your life will be cheered up again...
Happiness is the only factor leads to wealth........

Never Too Late

Never Too Late...Erm...This title is quite surprising...I received it from a true friend...How will you describe it?Never regret it after you missed it?Grab whatever opportunity along your life?Ok...It sounds good...But will you really grab whatever opportunity around you?Are you sure that you won't miss it?And even won't regret to your choice?

Haha......It sounds funny...You may think that there will be no one who can grab all opportunites along his life...Yup...I agree with you...Even I myself also wasted it before...
Opportunity,for me is nothing.It is just a small term in my dictionary...The most importance is the choice you made.Imagine that you are now standing in a jungle and are lost now.With nothing you can depend on,you just see two roads branched in front of you.Which to choose?The road covered with leaves that seems like nobody walked through it before?Or the road with only some footprints on it?

Difficult to make a choice,right?For me,I would choose the road who had already covered by thick layer of leaves...Why?I also don't know...I just think that if I choose another,I will not still being here already......

My Only Strength

I know...I can't protect you...
And you know...I will to save you...
But only with my strength...
Only my ability...Only me...
Will to change trillions of people's mind...
Their silly thinking...
Dealing with this harsh situation...
I can only try my best...
Trying to spread this message...
Love our only earth...
Instead...You are our only mother...
Safe her!!!
My hope...I strongly believe that...
Dream will come true............

Memories

Memories are just memories.I think that this statement is true for almost all things in the world except for one thing.That is love.

Maybe you might think that even love can also become a memory to those who have already separated.However,I think that even you had broken up with your lover,he or she would also survive in your heart.They would also alive in your mind.Instead,you would also miss them sometime.Maybe you might think that this is also one of memories.

But for me,It is really differ from memories.Memories might be sad or happy.But love will definitely be the happiest thing in your long life journey.Maybe even most of you may not accept this quote from me.Let us review.It is a truth that love hurted you before.Will you scare of love after this?You won't.Why this happens?This is because in your deep heart,the person who hurts you,love you actually.He hurts you just because he loves you.

Remember,the person who hurts you the most is the person who loves you the most.He did all these is just didn't want you to be hurted by others.He taught you to become stronger,more determined...Appreciate what he did to you,and even thank him because he hurted you before...And say to him...'I love you'......

Silly Questions Which Circling My Mind

Would the scar on my deepest heart heal?
Would the shaddy tree protect me from the heavy rain?
Would the sun shine my darkness soul again?
Would the wind blow me to the dreamland that I wished to?
Would the water of the narrow stream clear my worries?
Can anybody explain to me?
Why I feel very depressed in such city life?

Stress

Stress,a very common noun which circles our mind nowadays.There are too many worries produced as time goes on.However,most of the people think that tension comes from the environment...The hustle and bustle lifestyle...

Find the root of the problem...What is the source of the tension in city life?Actually,tension we faced is just a type of mental burden that is created soundless by our deepest desire in our heart...Our feeling controls our need...We ourselves lead a way for us to suffer from all problems...Think quietly and deeply...We will find that if we face it with another way which is more optimistics,we will be happier...With the happy feeling,all the problems we faced will become simple and easier to be solved...

Since facing problems optimisticly will give a strong mental support,thus the tension we faced will be weakened and decreased...As a results,our feeling already free from the conquer of stress...The burden of our soul...We already betray the tension's control...

Continue your life peacefully and moderately will lead a better and happier life...Tension,stress will not come towards us...Maybe we shall lead a life which is surrounded by the nature and we are belonged to it...Just that we back to the real route which we suppose to walk through...

Love

Recently,I watched a Korean drama,'Witch Yoo Hee'.Through this funny drama,I found that we may fall in love with someone without we realise...

In fact,we try to convince ourselves...We still love our first love...This is all just an imagination that circling our mind...However,as time goes by,we can't deny...Refuse it...

He already present in your mind without you realised...His position in your heart...Already important than your first love...And on the other hand...Your first love...Maybe the one who realised it at first...He should let you go...Trying to save you...From the love that confusing her for so long...

Love,not neccessary we should have it,but a blissful to the person who you loved...

Hate

Hate...What a strange word for me...I didn't even know it before...In my mind,I just know what love is...But not hate...I even didn't ever hate a person...

After my friend asked me to write about it,I quite scared as I don't know much about hate...For me,there is no hate...Just that our kindness soul is just temporary colonised by the darkness of anger...Maybe,at that time,I should call it as hate...Jealous or whatever name which suits it...

Maybe,what I should learn is just try to love...But not hate...Hate a person will only burden my mind...I would only live unhappily...Lead a life which does not belong to me...But the person whom I hatred...This is because my life has filled with the person's images...The person's work which I disagreed with...

So,I would just try to love...Not to hate...What he or she did...As long as I do not suffer,I would just ignore and forget it...Forgive a person will make your dull life happier...Try the best to widen my mind...Not to be small-hearted...

In conclusion,happiness will comes to me at last...^o^

Clean & Fair Competition

During these days,I found that it is hard to live in nowadays life...All people no longer smile to you with their true smile...But,behind it must have a sword pointing at you and you can't sense it...Once you make mistakes,you will be killed by this sword...They aren't remain their own characteristics...Changed to become a stranger...They are scary...

During a competition,no matter what a competition is...There will be people who try to do the best performance...However,these people can still be divided into two major groups:the group which is really try to do the best with their own ability,and the other is the group which try to prove themselves by cheating,using low tactics...

What I will to see...Is a clean and fair competition...Not that you are forced to cheat just because you do not do sufficient research...I am not a talent and clever person indeed,yet,I try to prove myself in each of a single test...Not that I already do lots of research...Although I do not do research at all,I would also try to do my test well and will not involve in any cheating action...

I saw a person,already insaint...Just because of a small test...He wished to beat me...I said to him before...'I hope to have a clean and fair competition with you.Then,we will know whose ability is higher.'Perhaps,I should not say these to him...Maybe he think that I was trying to send him signals that 'You won't win me forever' or whatever that seemed like I warned him...

After this,know what happened next?He did a lot of research everyday...Reading and memorising again what he collected...As time goes on,something unbelievable happened...When we both were sitting for the test that would differentiate our strongness,he began to nervous...His hands were shaking...He was in sweat...All of the sudden,He screamed loudly and fiercely...I saw this incident...I was shocked with his unexplainable actions...The examiner came to him and asked him whether he still can continue with the test...He tried to write the answer...He knew the answer...But,what he could write was just his name...He kept on writing his name...Till the paper was torn at last...

The examiner found that he already going to mentally unstable.So,in order to calm down the situation,the examiner asked a few people to carry him out of the hall...Then,we continued our test...Dealing with such a harsh situation,how could I dare to do well in the test...Yet,I still tried to convince myself that he will be fine soon...At last,I scored the highest mark...

After this,I went to meet him.He already insaint...Looking at him,I felt regret...I cried...What I tried to explain to him...Already too late...I couldn't express my sorry to him...I really sorry that I,the only person that made a person insaint...Just because of that two sentences...I successfully influent a person's future...He supposed to succeed in his life...And what I said has broken his brightly future...I couldn't forgive myself...I really felt sorry to him...

Till now,I still can't face him in person.I say nothing to him...I felt sorry to you...Do forgive my mistake that leads to this situation to be occured...

Feeling...To A Place

I long for a place...
Where there consists of few people...
Very quiet...Till I can hear the air...
Blowing slowly and peacefully...
The wind...Blows my worries away...
My tension can't even present in my heart...
My feeling...Can sense the freedom...
The birds...Flying so happily...
In the unmeasurable sky...
The wave...Hits the shore...
With the hand...The mother's palm...
Provided by the god...
Just like a mother...
Putting her hand on her baby...
Providing a safety feeling to the baby...
I long for it...
This place...Maybe...
I can find it one day...
Hoping that it's still not too late...

Perfect?

Will there be a perfect thing?
Nope,I think...And I could sense it...
Why I think so?I also can't explain...
Just because...People always do wrongly...
Think wrongly...Making such a wrong decision...
Just a short gap...Between perfect and imperfect...
The beauty of perfect...Making people feel like...
Want to sacrifice...Because of its invaluable price...
because of the efforts putting to it...
However...Won't imperfect things priceless?
They are not qualified enough...
For people to sacrifice for them?
The difference between perfect and imperfect...
Is just the way you think...
The sense you feel...
The price you state...
Just try the best...Work for it...
After these...Ignore the price...
The feeling...Where people throw to you...
You did your best...And you...
Worth for priceless...
Nothing can judge your work...
But yourself...You set the price yourself...
Thrust it...Your sixth sense will lead you...
To the way which you think...
Is the best...
Then,that is what perfect thing you will achieve...

Time

An old man...
With very strange behaviours...
Full with unimaginable thinking...
With worldwide knowledge...
Being lonely...Walking along all walks of life...
He discovered...The characteristics of human...
He found out...The cruel of human...
He uncovered...The differences of point of view...
He tried to...Show us the effect of our dicisions...
By uncovering the revenges...
The revenges for our selfishness...Our greedy...
However...Our human...
Still being circled by the darkness soul...
Being conquered by the enemies of kindness...
Become selfish...Greedy...Cruel...
Full with unexpected will...Unjudgable tactics...
Till when???
They will start to realise...Start to change...
Say sorry for their mistakes...
Unforgivable attitudes...Narrow thinking...
Hoping that...
Till that time...The efforts put in...
Will not too late for the changes...
Just forgive them...Accept their apologise...
Thrust them...They can do it...
What they need...Is just time...

Forgotten

Maybe...
There is a type of person...
Who really don't know what happiness is...
Not because he cold-blooded...
But...
He forgot how to laugh already...
What happiness is?Smile??
These words haven't appeared in his dictionary...
Maybe...There was once...One in his life...
The only period he smiled...
He laughed...He felt happy...
Then...He began to act cool...
Separated himself from the happiness...
The social community...
He dispirited...Disheartened...
And even,he felt like want to run away...
Away from the sadness...
Circling him...
He actually didn't want to be that...
But he had no choice...
But to set a cage which trapped himself...
Alone...
And maybe...
There is one day...
Someone who can safe him...
From the conquer of the darkness soul...
Free him...From the sadness...

Lonely

Lonely...Not because of staying alone...But the soul of my heart...Telling me that I am discarded from the society...The working society...And even the large social community...All people now are chasing for those names and money...They are now crazy...Being mad...To be the top of the world...To conquer the whole organism...

However,on the other hand,being the top of the world...The head of the system...Is it the whole of happiness?Will you happy at that time?Maybe you will...Just because of the luxurious life...The darkness of development...Behind the stone...There is still soil...

Money and power...Will not ensure your life with the happiness and successfulness...You will not happy with a lot of money but you are forced to do things that harm others...You will in stress when you are under somebody's control to perform inhuman jobs...

Try to think over...The present world now still full with love?Still rich in kindness?Generousity?Other values...What it left...Is just the inhumanism produced by the flow of development...

Change your mind and you will lead a better life with the real aim or purpose of life...

Meaning of Life

What life actually is?Know why we are bornt to this strange world?What is the mission that we carry in our long life journey?And,there is still a lot of mysteries that circling our mind...

What is the aim of all these?We bornt for nothing?There must be a reason that we are sent to this world...We have to make a large revolution...About what?Developing the rural areas?Helping poor people?Trying to safe the world which is now suffered from climate change?Or...There is another point of view that we mislooked over it...

I till now still remember...Mother Theresa...A nobel price awarder...What she proposed of?That is a caring,kindness...from our deepest heart...Which is trapped by the darkness soul...We become selfish...greedy...too rational...

Till when...When will we realise our fault?...Being so cruel to others...Wake up from the luxurious and meaningless dream...Let yourself awake...Open your clear eyes...Try to see...What had happened to the world...Because of human...And now...There is an eternal scar...Which corrodes their soul forever...